Nine - First, I'm sorry that you are back on the boards with us all. Having said that, you know this is the place you need to be.
You also know how the whole DB thing works. Affairs whether EA and/or PA are transient. The faster they start, they end just as quickly. It's like an addict needing a fix. Think how long the fix lasts.
Your W can only make her own choices now. And sometimes she will have to suffer the consequences of those choices. You need to re-group and get yourself back on track. Be the man she fell in love with again. GAL; go out with friends, throw a new color of paint on your walls, clean out a closet etc. You get the idea. Just as they think it's all about them right now, it's really all about you. I love the fact that we change and the WAS remain stuck. And when they see or hear the new us, they are so thrown off! What a payoff huh? They doubted us that we would ever change.
Dust off your DR book or go out an get yourself a copy if you don't have one. We are hear for you.
BITS
M: 48, H: 42 Kids: 0 T: 20 yrs M: 16 yrs. (H's 1st, my 2nd) WAS/MLC: 12/7/09-I'm not the wife HE deserved Came home per L: 12/26/09, Left again: 2/6/10 Served: 10/21/10, D FINAL: 6/15/11