Divorce or Hope?

[ninelives]

Hey guys:

Well Im back. Wife left me last year around this time. Swore no infedility despite what Puppy and Sandi and many suggested.

We tried reconilation in July but she only came back in body. She contiued to cheat with a rather unexpected low life that has a dead end job and two kids. One in diapers ( not quite a year) and one three.

I found out Halloween night via a blackberry she had passed out.
She continued to deny and I told her to leave and go back to the house she had bought in the summer. Where she had her trysts with this lowe life once a week. BTW, He is not at alll good looking and his fatehr was the town bum. I am so preplexexed that she actually slept with him let alone kissed him once.

She tried to committ suicide and ended in the mental institue for a couple of weeks but htat was more for show I thinnk.

He lft his wife on Dec 26 and my wife has her own place.

They are now out in the open but not living together. He goes there when she doesnt have the kids every other week.


Trouble is and it really bothers me, Somehow I still lover her.

I was on stresss leave till yesterday as was she. She stars work on Monday.

She has lost over 50 pounds and looks great sometimes but is haggard others.

She has really no fututre with this guy but he lavished attentionn on her that I guess I did not.

She textes me often despite me telling her not to. Its a long stroy but she doesnt reapect my boundries. We are getting aour sepaerations settlement finalized and I thinki its a fair one .

How do I get over her. My therapists and many others dont believe this is foing to last with him.

Our oldest son overheard everything and know his mom had the affair and wants little to do with her.

Most of her family want little to do with her as she has completely blown up her life.

Is there still a chance for us? She always wants to know what i am doing and was very hurt that i changed my status on facebook to single and received lots of support.

On jan 3, she told me she had a meltdown over new years and mawondered if I could giveher a week to think about coming back but three hours later changed her mind.

Any ideas