So my wife called my cell yesterday morning. I was too stressed out to pick it and talk to her. I let it go and called up the evening. She said that D wanted to talk to me. Then she asked me if i could send her 3 yrs tax returns as her lawyer wanted them. Then she started telling me how we should liquidate what assets we had. I just kept quiet and listened. She asked me about the house and i asked her what she thought. Then she said how we should try to make some money off it. If the divorce issue was the background, it would have sounded like she was talking about our future financial plans. It was too painful to listen and i told her to make the decisions and said bye and hung up the phone.
It seems like she is so ready to just move on and enjoy her life. Why am i on the other hand such a mess? I cannot sleep, work nor live properly. try to pick up strength sometimes and convince myself that i must move on but it is so hard. It actually snowed today and i saw some kids outside playing. My D and i would have been doing the same...Instead here i am looking at life while the best years of my family and I pass by...I am loosing hope that she will never come back. That this thing is going to change us so much that we might never converge.
sorry for the negativity. Had to get it out.
BITS M 38 W 36 D 7 Married 15 yrs W left for 6 months in 2009 W Filed for D 01/03/11 piecing now...
