Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

Lotus, just responded to your other response in the rings thread.

As far as our communication, yes, it is getting better. I'm also at the point where I can look back and see that, whoops, my response or tone may not have been right during a particular talk and correct myself later.

Thanks for the good advice in both threads. Even though I see things getting better, I do have occasional doubts. It's good to have a gentle clue x 4 reminder from time to time

For today's journaling, last night went pretty well DB wise. Picked up my kids after work and took them for sandwiches and a movie. Texted W asking if she wanted one, she declined. W called a few minutes later asking if I could pick up her prescription (starting ADs, hope they help) and if I'd be stopping by before the movie. I hadn't planned on it, as W doesn't like being around the kids, but I told her I would. Got home, talked about ADs (I'm on the same one), made her a margarita (from scratch, she likes them) and then took kids to movie. W went out to dinner while we were gone. Came home around 9:30, W still gone. She comes home around 10, we text for a few minutes and then she asks if we can talk for a few. Old me would have panicked, but new me went right to her room smiling. I laid on bed near her, and we just talked about our days filling each other in. Nothing serious, just connections. After 10-15 minutes, I told her goodnight and excused myself for bed. It was a prefect way to end the evening.

Lotus, I think you are right, I doubt we could go dark on each other for more than a day or two. At this stage that is alright.