Yeah, I have been following your posts close because it seems the most like my sitch. (without the daughter or mother part) I wanted to reply after you posted your conversation but I really couldn't think of anything to ad. It's brutal but I think that them venting is a huge part of the process. The fact that your wife was willing to do that gives me a lot of hope lol.
I know that my wife is running full speed towards the divorce. I know that she is putting a ton of her regrets on my shoulders and hoping that when I am gone she won't feel that pain any more. Of course I am stuck hoping the worst for her... that when I am gone she sees that I wasn't the source of her discontent and that I can be an asset to her and not a burden. I think that when we go to sign the papers I will just say to her "I told you that there was nothing that I wouldn't do for you" and sign... let her know that I meant every word. When I tell her I want her to be happy, I mean it and when I tell her that I want to understand how I made that not happen, I meant that too...
I am in a weird spot because I'm really trying to GAL and that might mean taking a job 500 miles from home. The move to Houston would be huge for me personally and I think it is ultimately the best thing for me to do... especially if I am going to end up single but I don't want to do anything that hurts my chances for reconciliation. At the same time, staying home and playing poker while unemployed could be the worst thing I could do to make my self attractive to my wife. I'm torn.
I got called from a local staffing company about a very good job here that I am being considered for... if I could get that job it would be the best case scenario for everything but the chances of me having to move are still very high.
We'll see what fate has in store for me. I hope that it gives me the opportunity to show my wife all that I have learned and will allow me the chance to show her what unconditional love really is. I'm so afraid that I missed my chances and that she has truly moved on but her actions throughout our separation give me hope.
In the meantime I'm going to DB the best that I can. The legal divorce will happen but my chances of living out the end of my life with my wife are not gone.
