I have done everything wrong....

[islander]

I have not contacted W for two days now, except for a short email about a bill, and it is very hard emotionally. W sent me a text the next day saying she got my email, then later a text saying "i'm sorry" (sorry for what). I did not respond to either, but the second one was harder to ignore.

I went to church last night, and it really helps me put things in perspective, and to accept my situation. The pastor talked alot about relationships and not being able to change another person, only being able to change yourself; that having faith in the Lord and His purpose for you can get you through the bad times, and to accept that you are not in control; and to ask Him for something good to come out of something bad. He said it alot better of course, but it spoke to me.

This is so hard, and I really feel that there is no hope for my M. I am going to concentrate on my relationship with God, and pray that something good comes out of this, whatever that may be.