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[habitacker]

Thanks sandi, I understand what you are saying. I suppose what got me thinking about this was in our talk last week she had mentioned that she doesn't remember what made her happy.

I have been thinking about this a bunch. Looking back I am trying to find what made her happy. I can see why she can't find it. She never had any hobby's, and had no friends that she ever went out with. She has friends at work, but it ends at work.
I have had a huge hobby for years, and friends I went out with, but I realize I wasn't happy either. This kind of explains where anger was coming from.

When I look back to when we were both happy, all we had was eachother. We made eachother happy, there was nothing else.

I am told that we can not depend on eachother for happiness, we both need other things in our lives, but we were both happy when all we had was eachother. When I got hobby's and friends I was not there for her. I know she should do the same, but then again, my hobby's and friends did not make me happy, I was happiest when it was all her and I. I believe it was the same for her.

I know she is searching for something. There is a article lying here by the computer that is titled, "Welcome to the 9 rooms of happiness". from Self magazine. I see there is an order confirmation E-mail that she ordered this book and researched the one I posted above, but did not order it. I take this as a sign that maybe she is taking a step, but maybe I shouldn't.

Sorry, writing in a hurry, it is probably pretty icky.

Thanks again.