When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

You are absolutely right! Dang it! This is my darned life and I can live it however I want no matter what he does or says!!! CRUD! That flu really dragged me into the gutter didn't it?

Yes, I have slipped into some ruts again. Got comfortable with the situation and have been accepting it for what it is. Well, it's not acceptable! Either he treats me like a woman he wants to have a R with or he's going to have to hit the road. I'm tired of feeling like the old dog he threw out and begging for scraps.

I have been able to start exercising again (my foot is so much better) and I've been seriously monitoring everything I eat through weight watchers and a buddy system. I haven't lost much yet but every pound counts!

I just bought new perfume and lotion. Totally different scent for me.

I need to have my hair cut and colored. Just waiting for the funds to have it done properly. Getting there.

As far as going out with friends, I'm working on that for this weekend. We were talking karaoke on Saturday night if one of them gets back from her side job early enough. We'll see. I'll work harder on that one.

I've been trying to schedule 'date night' with him for months now but he works 7 days a week always until 11pm. I've asked him to take one Friday or Saturday night off per month if he can so we can do things together. He hasn't done it yet so that just goes to show you where on his priority list I am. It stinks!

Confidence is a huge problem for me, as you all know. It's a super big struggle that overwhelms me and I give up on the whole idea.

Thank you all so much for talking me down from it. I really do need to have a talk with Gabe about all of this, there just never seems to be a good time.