I'm so sorry that you are having a hard time. Yes, I agree some of it is because you are out of your new routine.
I don't have the first clue how hard it is for you to stay dark. I can't imagine the pain. I can't imagine the helplessness. But you know, YOU HAVE TO STAY DARK. You have to do whatever you have to do to maintain this stance. You really do not have any choice in the matter. I know how scary this is. I really do. It took every bit of strength that I had last night to tell my husband that I supported him leaving. But these are the things that we have to do to get to our goal. I know it would all be easier if we were assured we could get to our goal, but we are not afforded that luxury.
Dixie, are you familiar with Charlyne Steinkemp? If not, look up her website. It is more about religious support for standing while spouse is gone. They don't provide the step by step advice we get here, but they do provide the Biblical support that we need right now. They send scriptures by e-mail everyday that really help with the pain.
Sweetie, I wish I could give you a hug right now. I know you need one. (((hugs))). I'm praying for you everyday!!! Do you know that it is scientifically proven that those who pray and those who are prayed for, recover more quickly and better from traumatic illness? This is why I am so diligent about praying both for all of you and myself. I can't help but think that the same thing healing those people will heal all of your marriages. So when I say that I am praying, please know that I am VERY SINCERE.
