The responses I have received today combined with this unexpected call have put me in a much better place.
Good for you Sparks.....
Please be careful with that balance...
Up too high...
Down too low....
Find an even keel to ride through right now..
I don't wanna see you on that roller coaster...ya know ?
Yeah. Not looking for a roller coaster. That is the exact advice my GP doc told me this morning. He said I have no impact on what my wife will eventually decide. I cannot force her to do anything. I can, however, continue to treat her right and take care of myself.
I just need to get myself in a place where I am consistent with this improvement. The six weeks (post bomb and pre affair discovery), I really looked to improving myself to be a better person. I am not a reader, but I read several books to improve (including Divorce Remedy). I began going to church every week. Started going for long walks with dog everyday. After the discovery of the affair, I have been in such shock and pain, that I quit doing those things. Sometimes, I thought they were just a waste now. I was hugely mistaken. I have to keep these improvements up and become even more consistent with them.
Me - 33 W - 33 S - 9 months M - 3 years T - 5.5 years Bomb - 12/14/10 ILYBNILWY PA discovered - 1/18/11 PA began - 3/22/10 Separated
