Ok, something I learned early on in this process? You need to cease talking about this situation with people who are deterring you from your goal. I will tell you that some disagree with me on this, but I truly believe this with all my heart. It's like if someone is trying to lose weight, they are not going to hang out with people who are constantly pushing chocolate cake on them.
You have absolutely taken the high road for which you need to be extremely proud. I don't think that would have been my initial reaction, but your reaction was exactly right. You are very strong.
I often tell people that hope is from within. You cannot look outside of yourself for hope because only you are in the situation. However, as you have rightly pointed out, there is a lot of hope if she is seeking therapy and has left the door open to you. Get involved with some other people here and you will see that they have not been afforded the same luxury.
What are the chances of you hooking up with a DB coach? I'm sure that they have heard this story before. I'm sure that they have heard everything. You can call the office and ask specifically for a coach that has gone through this.
Ultimately, you want your W. So if you don't fight, you will be hurt worse. But you have to fight smart. I have failed at doing this so many times. Please learn everything you can so you don't make my mistakes.
Get involved with some of the other posts here. People are incredibly caring and smart on this board. And sometimes when you are busy worrying about and trying to help someone else, it makes your situation easier. I have come to care very deeply about my friends here. Strangely, I sign on most days and check their threads before I even check my own! I keep a prayer journal and I have them in there. The other thing you will notice as you journey with the people here is that each has a specific strength that you really want to learn more about. In fact, I have found no one here that does not possess a specific strength that I want to learn more about. Let's look at you, for instance. You have incredible compassion, poise under pressure, and you're not reactive. That last point is big for me. I am very reactive. So, my long-winded point is, stay here, learn something and try to teach something along the way.
You are going to be ok, Sparks! You really are. I pray for you.
