W in long PA with another woman. I'm devastated.

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Had it rough last night. It was a night that we decided that our S would stay with W at brother's house, and I would not be coming over. I planned a night to meet a few friends for beers and trivia at a local bar to get my mind of things. It was pretty difficult. Constantly thinking of W and S. Had only 2 beers in a five hour stretch, since I didn't feel right.

On the way back home, I started to break down a bit. Just the idea of coming home to any empty house. Wondering how this ever happened. I called my Mom for support and to just talk. She helped calm me, however, both of my parents are older and conservative. They still believe that if she had any relationship that was same sex, then she must be gay. I have read to much and spoke to many psychologists that have been telling me that a woman's sexuality is very fluid, flexible, plastic, and can change often. Due to this, I have been keeping hope. If my W figures works on figuring herself out (without an affair ongoing), I will be patient and supportive. If this was just a complicated phase in her life due to a number of reasons that could include me dropping the ball on tending to some of her emotional needs at the time, I think we can still have a future together with our family intact.

Met me GP doctor today to renew some anxiety meds. He told me to keep my head up. Let my wife work on herself. Keep doing good things. Start exercising regularly to let of steam and take care of myself. Patient will only tell.

I could really use encouragement and support right now. If anybody has been in a same sex issue like this, please, please give me your words of advice or who I can turn to. There is not a ton of info out there concerning this. Thanks!