I believe I understand what you are saying. I have the kids tonight so I will try and view the situation in a different light. Look at it in a positive way, not focus on what I haven't done but what the benefits have been for the kids.
As to the weekend, you are right. I am trying to beat the clock. I agree that it will not help us if I have to try and convince her to go. Worried that if this session goes by the next one in or close to our area is not for months. I going to try and continue my going dark and look for signs in the next few weeks that it is/might be working.
Being out of the house, it has been very hard for me to put faith into a certain technique because I feel she will not see the progress. Add on top that when I go over to house to get and see kids I see stuff like new debit cards, health insurance info, etc... It knocks me back down from where I have been able to climb up over the past days.
