Thank you for the advice and Cadet for posting my link wow was I naive then. I am so lost I want to be with my H - "divorce" old marriage and create a new one. He asked me to send him a recommendation to see someone. I found someone who is solutionI-based (I hope) and sent him the number. He is coming by next Tuesday to see the babies. I hope to have some kind of meaningful conversation about everything but that hasnt happened the entire time. I love this man. The last 3 months I have spent looking so deep in myself where I had short comings - what kind of marriage i really wanted for us and myself. How I could change and I did change. Which is why I think he came back but he wasnt ready - he was still disconnected and living a lie. I have emailed to see if we can get into the woodstock office. Only problem I have is that I always felt that I did all the loving and fighting for us - doesnt he have to come fighting for me?
