New and need help.

[Seminolewind]

I spoke with my FIL yesterday, he told me he talked to my W and told her that she is not the same person, like an alien is living in her at this time. He told her that she needs some type of medical help or something like that. I just listened, then he told me, I told her like I told you, only you can see when you are doing something wrong, like my anger issues. He tried telling me long ago, but I never listened. I don't know if she will even listen to him. But I have faith something good will soon happen.

I started re-reading DR, I just want to make sure I am understanding what I am doing. I am hanging out with the kids trying to do something every day. I really want to contact her but I will not. I am learning that I can be a very patient man if I put my mind to work.

My birthday is Monday then Valentines the week after. I have always made a big deal about valentine's day for my kids and wife. I will get something nice for my girls and write a poem to my wife that she will never see. I will let it out and make myself feel good.

What have I done to get a life? I went to a concert with a group of friends felt like a fifth wheel but I had an awesome time, I have tried to quit being Donny Downer when the subject of my marriage comes up, and I have been hunting every weekend.

What else should I be doing? This is part of the I can't think for myself. Right now I am scared to make decisions that could really get me no chance at this marriage. I have struggled the last couple days because we got quite a bit of snow. I always cleared the walks and the drive. I want to go knock it out but that could be taken the wrong way or as pursuing. So I am just riding this roller coaster with a smile on my face. The funny thing is, I love roller coasters but this one is not any fun! I also read my original post and yes my mind is all over the place, maybe I will try and rewrite it this weekend for more input. Hopefully in a few more days I will have better control of my mind.