Let me just say that the crazy and mean person I dealt with since MLC wasn't like the man that I was married to before MLC.
I was willing to outlast the MLC and see what kind of man he would be if/when he emerged from the tunnel. H took that choice from me by filing. It's not like I could go back and say after the D, hold on, I changed my mind and realize I gave up too much in hopes that H would come through the tunnel, he didn't, and now I want more. Doesn't work that way. I have no option if I want to make it financially. I'm forced into a corner here.
I mention resentment of the children, and I, because that is what H told me upon leaving. He felt that all he was was a paycheck. The settlement will give his MLC brain even more justification for his feelings.
That said, I will continue down my path because I have to live post D. If I had the choice it would have been to still be living with the sane and rational H that he was before. That choice was taken from me and I have to do this to take care of the fallout from it.
