Ian's post was excellent. My question is, does it fly in the face of what we know or think we know about MLC?
From reading the posts on this forum I don't think I'm just speaking for myself when I say that there is a marked difference in how my H behaves and thinks compared to pre-MLC.
My once sensible, rational H now does and says things that are bizarre. Seriously, who in their right mind re-meets a woman that he dated 40 years ago in HS and moves in with her 2 weeks later?
IDK, maybe I am just making excuses for him, but before my H up and left, he hadn't given any kind of indication that he would do something like this. It was as if something just snapped inside of him. This was not the real and steady H that family and friends all knew.
H is still on the track to self destruction. He is smoking heavily again after having quit for years. (His entire family on his mother's side all died early deaths due to complications from smoking.) He is running himself ragged between work and on the go with ow. Previously on his time off from work he laid low and rested, especially after his stroke. Now, it has been witnessed that he will down up to 3 of those little energy drinks at one time, and mega cups of coffee so he can keep on going. (His truck is littered with the bottles.)
I believe he is still trying to outrun his inner demons. The brain's chemical changes between depression and MLC are the only things that make any sense to me in trying to explain why a good solid, loving family man turned his back and ran, and in fact, is still running.
Remembering the good in my H and our M and hopes that H would recover from MLC would have made outlasting his MLC worth it to me. (H has taken the steps to officially end our M.)That's me though, and I understand that no one else walks quite the same path.
You'll figure out what is worth it to you, YR. We'll be here to support whatever you decide.
