All I can say is WOW!!!! Great post!! Yes, those thoughts have entered my mind more than once since this all started way back when. I do grow very tired of it all.
I have learned alot through this crap and you what I am no longer afraid. I am not afraid of being by myself, I know I can make it. There are things I won't tolerate this time. I won't let him run all over me. I know I will not live like this forever and he needs to get his stuff together. I do love him but like you said it was hard enough for all of us the first time around. I was at the breaking point the last time.
I want to give it one last ditch effort on my part not to see my 28 years M go down the drain without trying, but it takes to to make it work.
Believe me nothing surprises me anymore and I am staying one step ahead. I am keeping my OPTIONS OPEN!!! LOL
