So after this texting fiasco I sent an apology email the next day. The W replied stating that she understands how I would feel hurt and angry and that she is sorry for hurting me.
The next day I sent her a friendly text and she responded she would call me the following eve to discuss business. When she called the following day it started out with small talk and then got into some business matters. Then I poured my heart out. I told her that getting a D is a mistake. I told her I know what a fool I've been and apologized. I said that I believe I know her concerns/fears and that everything can be remedied. I told her I really did want to have kids and had been making a bunch of plans that I wanted to discuss with her. I told her that she/we are a statistic and layed out every detail of how our sitch is cookie cutter. I told her we were better than that. I said tons but never got angry or accusitory. I was a little emotional at times.
Doing/saying all of this is a 180 from what I had been doing. I told her I don't drug, beat her, or cheat on her. She said, " What about the 10 month thing (EA)?" I told her that it was a b****ing session only, that I never f***ed anybody! I asked her to slow things down and don't rush to D.
She was choked up a bit and said all this was making her stomach hurt. She said a couple of times that it was a lot to absorb and think about and that she had to get off the phone now. She said that she would call me Thurs or Fri.
I don't want to get my hopes up but I know this woman still loves me and doesn't WANT to get D. She feels she HAS TO. Of course for bogus reasons IMO. I keep thinking she is going to call me back and say it was a great speech but she's going through with D. Any thoughts? I think I'll set up an appointment with a DB couselor.
