after a little more than a year i am back

[grr]

my husband called to say goodnight to s last night
i made sure i was not in the room so my son would answer the phone
i had told him that i didn't need to talk to dad tonight, that i was busy, but at the end of their very short conversation, i was handed the phone anyway

but you all can be proud of me, i was brief, and although he tried to engage a bit, i made sure we kept it short and that i hung up first

it was hard because i miss him and yesterday was especially hard (right denver?)
but i am going at this with new resolve

[grr]

help - i just wrote him a letter telling him that i accept his decision to move on..but i really don't i'm just looking for him to reply with "oh no - you're moving on, but i've changed my mind and i'm madly in love with you"

yikes

ok, just needed to write that out and see how silly it sounds

i will not press send

[grr]

sorry, but i need affirmation....it is not a good thing to send him a letter, saying that i have accepted his decision and that i will make things easy for him to move on.........right?

[MrBond]

DO NOT send him that letter. It is a bad idea.

[Denver_2010]

my husband called to say goodnight to s last night
i made sure i was not in the room so my son would answer the phone
i had told him that i didn't need to talk to dad tonight, that i was busy, but at the end of their very short conversation, i was handed the phone anyway

but you all can be proud of me, i was brief, and although he tried to engage a bit, i made sure we kept it short and that i hung up first

it was hard because i miss him and yesterday was especially hard (right denver?)
but i am going at this with new resolve

First grr... do NOT send the letter!!!

Second, yes, yesterday was especially tough... or was that today? I can't tell. I continue to have a rough time. Been about 72 hours now.

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Denver

[grr]

oh denver, i am so sorry
me too
i really missed him today and to make matters worse, my mom ended up in the hospital this evening
when he called to talk to my son, i ended up on the phone and told him (they are very close, my mom has been more like a real mother than his own who left when he was a toddler) i thought he should know
i ended up crying a bit
but still i got off the phone fast and didn't say too much
he was very concerned and told me when his flight landed he would call
she is home now and i think i will just text him and tell him all is ok
that way i wont be up waiting for his call
denver i hope tomorrow is better for us both

[zengypsy]

Grr and Den - special prayer for you both tonight that tommorrow will be a better day.

STAY STRONG!!

((((HUGS))))

[Denver_2010]

Me too grr. I'm glad that you mom is okay.

Thanks Gypsy!

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Denver

[Bolt]

third on the prayers!
Glad you didn't send the letter. Also glad that you came here to vent and to see if it was the right thing to do.

It seems we all need a little validation before we try something that is a little foreign to us.

[zengypsy]

Grr - how r u today? Just checking in on my fellow Bidet!