Someone suggest H is having a MLC....I don't know?

[Queen_of_Swords]

Ok, so I just got through another person's conversation with their WAW here: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2126254&page=5
I can not tell you the feelings that arose in me. Utter despair for one.
The really funny part is that the WAW expresses how I felt within my own marriage! I was like the furniture, there but not included in his life. Ignored unless I was useful in some way. Is it any wonder I'm confused?
The WAW is ME! I just didn't leave. I accepted that this was marriage and how things were and would be.

I don't know what to do or how to feel anymore. You can't make someone love you if they don't. Those shark eyes of my H's don't give me hope for the future. I noticed today he got mail from the agency that gives that Parenting After Separation Seminar. That doesn't give me hope either. One more step and he can file and be done.

Do I just accept that as far as he's concerned I'm the most awful person on the planet? Be happy I'm not the monkey on his back he feels that I was, and try to forget I ever had him in my life or in my heart?

I don't expect any answers here. It's sure easier to be numb and feel nothing that to keep on dealing with this. At least other people appreciate my friendship unlike this person I am starting to wish I had NEVER met.