Chapter 3 the end? Or new beginning?

[Redo]

It's my D B-day today. So W picks up the phone and starts venting on how i screwed up things. I start to panic in mind but still keep a calm voice on the phone. I just listened to her vent. Then i feel like cr#p that might be i should have done things differently and might be the M would have survived. But later on i feel that this is how my W is. She always told me that i was the main reason why the M was not working. So finally i just had to accept no matter what, i gotta man up and work on myself to just become a stronger person at-least...

This last week was my D bday party also. A few days prior my W and I spoke and she said damn you H for putting me in this position. Damn you for hurting D this way I just agreed and let it slide

Oh man, i would have had a crying episode (i shamelessly acknowledge) if my W told me that. I guess i have to harden my heart to my wife's up/down emotions. Listen and acknowledge, but don't get caught up in them. Hard to do when i so want her come to back and i feel so much that i'd like to protect her...