Hoping to find some peace

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need some help today. Feeling like sh*t

It was my daughters 3rd Bday today. Called up and wished her. She was so excited. I really loved talking to my daughter and hearing her cute voice.

Then my W took the phone and started venting. Like if i even know how bad their situation is. That i never decided to get myself out of my depression and decided to hang on there. Like how i never sought any help. She said that she could not stay with the person i was. That she did not care what i could become. Initially tried to answer her questions. But later i stopped and just listened. Then she finally hung up.

My world just crashed after that. Somehow was hoping that my wife could say that we should try again to see if we can get back. But instead my wife just took out all her frustrations.

I dunno. I was really optimistic about sticking with my M and pursuing my W. But I am now heartbroken that she's harboring such resentment towards me. I am feeling that i am just loosing all hope in this effort.

I am sorry. I felt pretty bad and had to put it out somewhere...