Hi, haven't posted to you before but have read a few from you on other threads. You said something that I have read many, many times from a LBS, when you referred to your wedding vows. I was a WAW, in heart, and the last thing I probably thought about were my vows. I don't mean that in an ugly way, please understand, but I honestly was so messed up that my "vows" didn't cross my mind. I wonder if it does pop in the mind of most LBS, IDK.
So, I only say this in hope that you won't torture yourself by wondering if he ever took his vows seriously. The frame of mind a LBS has is difficult to understand and so many LBS try to figure them out. I'm sure he did take them seriously when he said them.....just as I'm sure he loved you.
I'm just rambling......
((hugs))
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