The OM syndrome. sigh.....How do you keep your mind from wondering? That my friend is a good question when you figure it out you let me know.
I second what BOLT was saying there are only 3 possibilities here
1. You are right 2. You are wrong 3. Or you W could be testing the waters without actually having a PA
In the end who suffers? You do. You've read my situation you know that I also have a vulture flying around looking for a meal. That's ok. At this point I do not believe W has really done anything, actually I am convinced of it. Does my imagination get the better of me? Yeah sometimes.
The way I look at it is very simple. I will continue to DB until I no longer care to. If I am successful I will know if there was a PA, if there was I have two options......
1. Forgive and piece the M together 2. Hit the delete button on the last 10yrs and move on.
If there wasn't then my W is the woman I thought she was and I will piece my M together one day at a time.
I will probably choose 2 because that has been my personal benchmark since I began. We each have a breaking point, a point where we will stop and move on. A PA affair in my case is mine. What is yours?
The point is, it doesn't matter what is happening right now because you can't control it. It is like worrying about global peace or some BS. Concentrate on what you can control and the other pieces will happen whether you want them to or not.
I do believe our imagination is much worse than reality.
