Mach1, Thanks for making me think harder. It really is your choice in life. I live life spontanously. I always have. I need to make a choice now which is difficult for me. Patience - I feel my patience has increased many fold but I will need to more for this stand.
I will continue to look to see if I have guilt hidden inside somewhere. If its in there I will find it.
Our marriage seemed to always evolve. I may be nieve but we aech changed and were able to move forward together and it worked. The biggest change is MLC. It derailed me for 2 1/2 years. It is now derailing my wife. Remember in MLC you are rocked to the core of your being. It almost seems like a program to prepare you for the second half of your life. The problem is when your a couple, one spouse is looking at it from the two of you perspective and the other is now only looking at it from there individual journey.
My MLC was mostly internal. I did not turn to external stimulus which may be why it was only 2 1/2 years. Hers is external for now and has not looked inward yet.
My vision is for two post MLC people whose view is a more mature loving relationship. I am prepared for that but not nieve enough to think this is going to happen. I will treat her with as much compassion that i have. Believe me I have much. I also believe that life does carry us along and if we listen we do hear the answers. I am listening as we speak.
