My H's ego has definitely grown considerably, which is tough considering how big it was to begin with. Last night, he was talking to me about someone at work who royally screwed up something because said co-worker's ego was so big he couldn't think he was wrong. I swear, it took every single fiber of my being to not crack up and show him to a mirror.
I'm definitely meeting people at the gym. Hanging out with them. Even texting and talking on FB. Here's the thing, you can't lay this kind of drama on new friends. So, while I am trying to meet new people and doing just ok with it, it's still a bit lonely because I wouldn't bring this kind of heavy BS up with them. My personal trainer is going through a break-up right now so I talk to him a little bit, but mostly I listen to his drama. Girl really broke his heart.
So, anyway, H is on his crappy path again. Been spending lots of time with the roommate upstairs. This weekend, the roommate, her daughter and H all decided to order dinner. They brought it home, H didn't even offer me any. I said something later about it being kind of nasty, he apologize profusely, I was unconvinced. Next day, rooommate and H go to work together. I absolutely know they were there because H's co-worker mentioned it. But them going to work together has never happened before. I believe H is doing this to piss me off. At the very least, he's an insensitive jerk.
Frankly, I'm kind of tired of the whole situation. I know dbmod is cautioning me about telling him to leave, but I get closer every minute. This is not the man I was in love with. This man is a creep. I'm very angry right now thinking about things. The collapse happened right after his buddies visited and they told him that I changed. Roommate told me that they called him after the visit and commented about me changing. (He failed to mention to them about a big fallout at work in my dept that same week). Anyway, my H has defended everyone else, his friends, the lunatic OW (who moved down here last year, moved back suddenly, and then is moving back again), and everyone else. He was supposed to defend his W first. But he didn't do that. And the more I think about it, the more sick it makes me. I could get into more about all of this, but there's no point. The thing is that I really look at him right now as if he is an awful person. I'm failing on my quest to provide unconditonal love. I need to work on that, but I'm just angry right now.
