Sitting in my house all alone...

[Navyguy]

Ugh, bad night. I just got off the phone with W. I had talked with a friend earlier and he told me that I need to fight for my right to be around my kids, so I decided I would call and talk to her about that.

We had a pretty good talk until I brought up my need to be around the kids. In her mind she is interpreting my need as me forcing her to move back to Washington DC and that her life has to "be on my terms like it has been for the past 9 years". She got really angry with me...told me that she sees it as her having to choose between moving back and making herself miserable, or making me and the kids happy. I told her we need to put the kids first, but of course she said I was pushing for that because it is what I wanted. I told her that I will make any arrangements she wants and everything can be on her terms with my only term being that I am near our kids. She then told me she really doesn't see any chance for us to reconcile, and said she let go of me a long time ago. How do I handle this? I need to be around my kids....this is just killing me to not be there for them...and I know I'm going to have a great time with them this weekend but I am already so worried about having to say goodbye to them again...I don't know if I can handle that.