Letting your mind go is such a painful thing. Take solace in the fact that we all do it.
BUT stay in the positive frame of mind. Look at all the positives and hold on to them. Those seem like facts to me.
The other is speculation. Could you be right? Sure. But you could be wrong too. The problem becomes if it isn't a problem and you bring it up, you run the risk of pushing her further away.
That's how I start to look at things. Really three ways.
If there is something going on, you'll find out soon enough.
If there isn't something going on and you act like nothing is, you will probably be rewarded for your patience.
If there isn't something going on and you act as if there IS something going on, you run the risk of pushing her further away.
So three outcomes: 1 - there is an A and you will find out soon enough. 2 - there isn't one and you do fine. 3 - there isn't one but you successfully push her far away.
The way I look at it, is you can control 2 and 3 by letting her have her space and ACT as if nothing is going on. Play the odds
If there is something going on, you'll be hurt for sure. BUT I don't think you'll be as hurt as you are making yourself feel down about it.
It's painful for sure but try to deal with the facts AND what you can control. I'm sure you'll feel better about yourself this way too.
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