25 Years Gone...?

[irishblessings]

Tad -
I am SO sorry for your situation. We have MUCH in common. Our 25th was in September - our kids are same age - I have experienced much of what you have. I know the pain well.
The BEST thing I did was "go dark". Seeing him was TOO painful for me. There was no way I could heal and begin to think clearly while I had to see him or while interacting with him.
Your kids are old enough to have their own relationships with their mom. You need to take care of YOU.
IB