LL, I think it's great that you choose to stay home with the Wee Ones. I did too. I wouldn't have changed it for the world either. I'd love nothing more to just be a Mother and wife, but H thinks I should work. He could afford to support me and soes for the most part. He pays all the bills even though he does not live with me and never asks what I do with my money. Some would say it's the least he could do since he's the WAS. I suppose he does feel obligated. I don't want to ba an obligation. I want to be cherished by my H. Not sure that will ever happen, but I've hung on to that hope for a long time now. What I have a hard time with is that he's been gone off and on for over 2 yrs and STILL does not want to come home. It gets rather old-this not being wanted. I've decided to back off and see if he steps up, but I have serious doubts about it. I have a man that wants to go out with me, and I'm so tempted-just as a friend. Is it so wrong to want companionship after 2 yrs?? I guess I want my cake and eat it too. I love my H and want our M, but he obviously does not love me that much and does not care if he spends time with me or not. Why does he have to put us through this? We are wasting precious years of our lives together. I'm afraid that it will still be this way 5 yrs from now. I've told him I won't wait forever,and I won't. I also told him there's not many women that would put up with what he's done and still be around 2 yrs later. I'm not sure if that speaks bad about him or ME??? Rachael
