First off I can't believe I spell peace wrong...bonehead!! Haha
I am only 28 but have been on the go my whole life. I joined the af when I was 17. I have been to most of the states and 18 different countries including quatar for the iraq war and afghanistan. I spent 6 yrs in the af. I loved every minute of it. Afterward I took a job that had me gone from home a lot. In fact I never even had a place to unpack my thing until a year and a half after I got out of the service. I would just stay by ppl like my folks. This is also when I started dating my now W. I took a different job and we bought a house. We stayed there for couple of yrs. I used the gi bill to get a degree. We then sold the house and moved down by her family. We lived with my MIL until we bought this house.
I am so tired of being on the go. I might be able to afford this house on my own but really have no interest in keeping it without her. We bought this house together and I see her everywhere in it. Its only home with my family in it. I used to sleep so sound at night and until now always took for granted the reason why. At that time I had the things that truly give a man peace of mind...a roof over our heads, my D2 asleep in her crib and the love of my life sleeping with her head on my chest. God I miss those days!!
I am "putting my boots back on" as my uncle has put it. My diet has improved, I am getting better sleep, joined the gym a couple of months ago, and have been getting back to the friends I neglected when I felt my wife slipping away and followed her around like a damn dog. I have just put in new basement windows and ordered some lumber so I can continue to remodel my basement like we were planning. I am even getting prices on putting a deck on in the spring. I have had ppl tell me this is foolish since my house is on the market bbut I just tell them my name is still on the title and I'm gonna teeat it that way, not wait around for the ax to drop! Also I do most of the work myself and it really keeps my mind off the sitch. I guess it helps keep me centered
