A slow turn

[Bolt]

Wow! I am truly blessed to have found this group here. You are all fantastic at pushing me in the right direction and giving such sound advice.

I hope to return the favor often.

Punchy - You are dead on. Most people would give up. It's funny because I've gotten very close to one of my neighbors recently and he's been giving awesome advice. When I told him friday that the W has come back he congratulated me on working through it. He echoed the same sentiments as you did - not too many people can make it through this.

LIS - I did go back and reread old posts. It does give a ton of hope. I am so grateful to have this board to vent. I do think we are in reconciliation (I'll go more into what happened at lunch today in a sec to explain further). I did so much studying about how to get to this phase, that I'm not sure what to do now that we are here.

Grr - you are so right. The stuff we just went through ripped me up. I need to stay focused - once again, this group has helped tremendously.

Denver - dead on too. (I'm sensing a trend here) We can create this on our own. It's almost like we are our own worst enemies. It's funny because there are times when I think that I'm not in control - when in all actuality, I'm in complete control - of MYSELF.

Step - that is fantastic stuff man. I wish your W could read that post alone.

and finally onestep - wow! Thanks for really punching me in the gut - I NEEDED it. That is so well put. You're right and that's what I want. I've said that all along but have a hard time following that.

It all kinda goes back to what LIS said about being touched. It seems so easy to me for her to simply hold my hand or touch my shoulder when she walks by. But to her, it is a lot of work. It is also something that she said she is willing to undertake.

once again, thanks to all. I will continue to post (not that I wasn't anyway) and help you as much as I can.