Oh boy. I know you are in A LOT of pain. I'm so sorry for that. Please hang in there with us. There are a lot of people here who can help. MrBond is a veteran and is AWESOME. So everything he said.
Plus, no more articles. Do not send him ANYTHING like that anymore. Do not let him know about this site. Do not let him know about the book.
Do not tell him that you are not going to see anyone. Do not let him know any of your plans.
Be very friendly and always smiling when you speak (even if it's on the phone). Detach lovingly. It took me a little while to get this. I needed to learn how to detach without being b&tchy about it. I got detach down, but b&tchy took a little work
It's time to be strong and do for yourself as much as humanly possible.
Most important, YOU ARE GOING TO BE OKAY NO MATTER WHAT. Take care of yourself!!!