First piece of advice for you is to go hook up with Joel (I believe its JR09 or something like that) RIGHT NOW. If you want to learn patience, he's the master.
Second, go BACK and read your posts. Look at the progression. It's all going the right way and you have the power to keep it on track and you have the power to send it off track. Which do you choose?
Third, stop saying that you sound whiny and bitchy. We are all here to support one another and we feel what we feel. We ARE entitled to our feelings. The key here is that you express them here and not at home right now. You also have that under control.
Fourth, I understand the touch thing. I would probably pay someone $100 just to give me a hug because it's been that long. I'm desperate for someone to just touch me (everyone get your minds out of the gutter!!!!!) I think all of us can relate to that.
Fifth, ok so this is why I asked the question the other day about reconciliation. Because if you believe that is where you are, then you need to go hang out a little bit more on their boards. This is a VERY CRITICAL phase and you need to get it right. Not many of us are experts over here on this. And you do need experts on this. Everything you are feeling is normal. But you have a goal and you need to keep your eye on the goal. Love IS A CHOICE. So make that choice and stick with that decision. We don't get the luxury of moving back and forth on that decision. Sorry, but LBS's must commit to a decision and stay focused on it.
Finally, we are all here for you and will listen to whatever you've got to dish out. You've done a great job. Keep posting and keep getting those feelings out there. It's ok. You're gonna have bad days. Hang in there!!!
