WAW tearing up our family

[ironMan]

I forgot to add ... I received 2 job offers this week. I have a good job now, but have been thinking about changing jobs for awhile now. Anyway, I am able to dictate terms on money etc. .... and I feel really good. I know that life already has a lot of change for me right now .. but I kind of feel like "hey, why not change jobs too?". Having to prove myself at a new place will probably keep me busy and my mind off of all of this ... plus will be a chance to learn new things.

Anyway, last night I really, really felt like life was just opening up in front of me. And I felt in every fiber of my being that I am an amazing catch for a W or an employer ... and that I was going to have a better life than I'd ever imagined. And having my W be a part of that wasn't at all necessary.

Maybe that sound mean, or egotistical ... but I felt great. I'd also found some local groups online that host activites for separated and divorced people. Things like going to a movie, or going on a hike ... and I'm excited to check these out. Anyway, my W came down and was watching TV with me and I told her that I just really, really felt good about life right now. Which I do!

She's super depressed right now. Which I kind of find funny because nobody is standing in the way of her fantasy life. She should be happy!

Anyway, about 5 mins later she says "well, you don't have to spend money on flowers for V-day this year so you can add that to your happy list".

I paused, and responded "yeah, that's true. I can buy something I want"

Anyway ..... I imagine this whole thing as a fight. She's just trying to punch me .... and I'm using jui ji tsu or whatever ... I'm taking her attacks and using her force against her craziness. I'm not letting them hit me or damage me.

Do I expect her attacks to become more vicious? Absolutely. But, it won't matter. I may hurt, but she can't win. Because I'll always be great. :-)