This is EXACTLY right! You do not know what God is doing in his life and with his heart. But what you do understand is what He is doing in yours.
Dixie, I know that you are heartbroken and God knows that too. So, please allow Him those quiet times to speak to you. I need to take that advice sometimes, but let Him do a work on your heart. You just have no idea the wonderful plans that He has for you. And you need to trust Him when you say, "not my will, but Your will be done." This will make it easier in going dark.
You just have such a good heart and a sweet nature. Those qualities are very hard to find in a person these days. Your H is going to learn that. But that isn't your concern right now. Work on YOU because YOU are worth it. And watch for those butterflies!
Now tell me... what kind of dog are you considering??