You don't need to feel sorry for me, I am fine. I am alive and well. I have hopes and dreams, something that was in short supply during marriage. For that, I blame myself.
And no, I didn't say to send him packing. But when it comes to something new you say "I can't do that." But you can. Did you ever think you may be doing both of you a favor by doing so?
What does it matter? You are going down the path of slowly losing your feelings for this man. Is that what you want? Do you want to slowly lose your feeling so that no matter what he does, it won't matter? Do you want to wake up in 10 or 15 years and have no feeling but disdain for the guy? That is the path you are on. You have even told me that had your H not done what he did, you were walking the path towards an affair at the very least. You say here how you fear you may meet someone intellectual more in tune with your state of mine. So then what happens, you dump your H for another man. Inaction is not going to correct your situation. So what does it matter? Does it matter to you whether your life with your H gets better or are you happy to just keep the staus quo until you find something better?
I am telling you this stuff because obviously you have some hope that things will become better. And I am relating to you what I see from my situation to what I see in your situation because I have an understanding how the inattentive male mind works.
