Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

A little more journaling, since it looks like these posts are on the other side of the earth from the rest of the board.

Weekend was a mixed bag but ended up good. Had both S over on Saturday and went sledding with friends. W went to nearby city with other friends to check out new brewpub. Her goal was to get back around 11 and obviously not drink too much to be able to do that. Dropped both S off at their mom's around 8, watched a movie and went to bed around 11:30. Woke up a couple of times to use bathroom and resisted temptation to see if W made it back (we sleep in separate rooms now).

Wake up next morning to see that no, W didn't make it back. Was somewhat angry and disappointed but didn't do anything but take off ring and put it with hers. W texted around 7:40 that she had 12 drinks the night before (she's maybe 120 pounds) but she still planned on checking out a new church with me that morning. I'm an atheist, but I wanted to check out the local Unitarian church more for the social aspects to see if it would work for us. She texts later saying she'd throw up if she went so I went by myself, first church service in maybe 30 years. I'd go back

W texts after the service asking if there was anything she could bring home for lunch. I give her suggestion and we meet back at the house. By then, I put my ring back on as most of the anger had subsided. W apologizes and says if the roles were reversed she'd understand how mad I would be. I was actually very calm and friendly but did admit that I had been angry and disappointed. She admitted that she really likes the person I am now, funny and laid back about things like I was when we first went out. W then stood up and asked for a hug. We must have held each other tight for 5 minutes!

Spent the afternoon with W, enjoyed each other's company and she mentioned doing future things together several times (caught herself once). She mentioned that she was going to a doctor this week to see if she could get some ADs and also mentioned several times how she's messed up our lives. W also said that when she gets her head on a little straighter she'd finish reading Not Just Friends. She asked if I was still looking at apartments and I confirmed that I was. We talked a lot, I validated a lot and all in all I see her trying to get closer to me. I've finally learned to be patient instead of jumping at the chance and sending us backwards. I really do think that DBing is making a huge difference!