I guess I'm not reading you going through those emotions. You need to express them more because even though you probably do need to attach, you do need to let us know what's going on inside you.
Hope without expectations... I think that is the single hardest thing for all of us to figure out. Perhaps MWD can do a book dedicated to that topic.
Listen, most of us would not have made it as far as you have. Most of us would have been divorced by now. It is your patience and work that has gotten you this far. If you think you need to tweak a bit, then tweak. But your story is such an inspiration to me. I want to learn your patience. If it doesn't save my marriage, that's fine, but it will save me. I am an overly anxious person and that is because I'm so impatient. It's not worth living your life like that. EVERYTHING in life will send you on a roller coaster ride. But you, you have this patience thing nailed. I just don't think you realize how much. Stay the course, Joel. You aren't divorced. THAT'S THE BIGGEST TIPOFF THAT YOU ARE GETTING AT LEAST SOME THINGS RIGHT!
