What next???

[sarahani]

Warrior,
Ty, ty, ty. You don't understand how much I appreciate all that you said.
Before reading what you had wrote I sent my husband a text telling him this is my new # and that when he would like we can go out and have coffee or something as friends. He replied!!! He said, "ok we will", he has never ever said that before. Whenever I have suggested such things he would literally laugh in my face and then e text me back and said I will buy you a car soon just be patient. Wow, I'm not going to read too much into what he said but I must say I felt better.

It's so hard to work on myself when I have 2 kids I'm home with all day not an excuse but it's the truth. I have enrolled back into college which I would have never done if all this hadn't happened. I just think it's going to take me longer than I want to really detach as I was so dependant on him. In essence my life revolved around him and I think that's why he keeps referring to me as weak. One of the major changes I need to make is to become financially independent and that is going to take some time. I made him my everything and when he left I lost everything...it's time to pick up the pieces and get myself together.