well imp I didn't mean to reply 4 times...but I can see how that can be construed as nagging
well then I guess that's it...so the facts are this...I can ask for what I want (AGAIN) and not get it or get it occassionaly. I can demand (by putting a deadline with a neg end result if he doesn't meet my demands) change in the r and be met with "it's the same old stuff" (wonder why so many guys sit and say "you been complaining about the same things for years" and never do a damn thing to address those complaints??? moronic if ya ask me!) and then a fight and coldness possibly followed by a short period of h attempting to meet some of those requests to keep me quiet and then poof right back to coasting. or I can say nothing as I've already said it all before and it would just be "bringing up the same things again" and either learn to live with it or eventually blow a gasket.
so you see imp there really is nothing I can do right now..I'm not in a position to put the kids through it...they are a factor...sure they'll always be a factor but in another 15 years or so not as much of a factor and a lot can change in that time period...but then again don't they deserve better? wich is worse? a broken home but two parents who are happy...or a whole family with one oblivious and the others blood almost boiling?
and for that matter what would I be doing if h weren't here? how much of that can I do now?
