Ok, so I screwed up. I asked him if he had read any of the articles I sent him and he said he could not on his phone again. I said I had sent him a link for computer, and he said, yeah, I'm not gonna read them. I said ok, I will stop sending you them...I had sent him a few of Michelle's articles and told him this was what I was reading for me and I hoped we could take time and think things through..I then got mad and covered it sort of..was calm..a 180 for me...and said, you know I can't ask you not to see anyone else...I am not going to see anyone else because I don't want to right now..I want to just work on me...but I have no right to ask you not to do anything..you left me...I need to accept that.
Backtracking, while he was here..he made dinner, while I did work paperwork. I thanked him and we shared a meal. It was just ok. He then said he would put fuel in tank, I told him he did not have to ..I needed to learn to be more self sufficient. He insisted...so I let him. I thanked him. He only put one of the two containers in saying, this way if you run out you will have another container that will get you through a day til you can arrange to get fuel. I thanked him and agreed that was smart.
He asked me to call him and let him know when he could come get his stereo out of his older truck during daylight hours. I said any morning before nine. He asked if I could call him and let him know when, I told him I would prefer he called me so I wasn't bothering him. He left angry though...so I called him and said...look, I am trying to give you what you want...if you want to be done, I can't stop that. I am not going to see anyone else and yet, I have no right to ask you not to..you alluded to the fact that you were...so I guess that is up to you. He said I am not seeing anyone else...and I said, well that is up to you. I can't tell you what to do.
He got mad about that and said he was driving and could not continue conversation. I said I understood, and he then said I don't know what I want and then said I gotta go. I said bye.
I don't know what to do..when I pursue he gets mad and runs, when I do not pursue he gets mad. I feel like I keep making things worse and I don't know what to do ...I really can't wait for Divorce Remedy book to get here.
