A Lovestruck Romeo Singing the Streets in Serenade

[Denver_2010]

Journal/Update

1/30/11

W and I have a text conversation Sunday afternoon.

W: "what are you guys up to"

Me: "went to church, played ball with the dog, now at coffee shop eating breakfast sandwiches. What r u up to?"

W: "Was sleeping. About to get moving. Cousin coming over at 2"

Me: "Ok. Well, just let me know what's going on with SS. I'd still like to take him to see Green Hornet with you. I understand though if u don't have time or don't want to"

W: "Cousin coming over at 2. Want me to get seth before that or after. I don't know about the movie yet. Maybe tonight."

Me: "After is fine with me. We're just hanging out and I don't have anything going on."

W: " ok"
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Later on Sunday...

W calls me. We talk about us taking SS to movie together. She says that she feels weird. I tell her that I understand and that it is completely up to her. W says something about like "I know what you're up to." I said, "I don't know what you're talking about." It was a light/joking exchange. She said, "we've been together for 8 years, I know when you're up to something." I again joked that I wasn't up to anything and didn't know what she was talking about.

W says okay to movie and asks me if SS and I have eaten. I told her that SS had eaten something small, that I had not, but could wait unless she wanted to eat. W said that she wanted to eat something before. I told her that I'd take her to dinner. We agreed to meet at restaurant by movie theater.

W met SS and I at the restaurant. We ate dinner and talked normally (normally in the sense that it did not seem uncomfortable).

After dinner we all went to the movie. SS did sit bw W and I which I was a little disappointed about, but beggars can't be choosers I guess.

W smiled a lot during the movie. We smiled at each other a couple of times when a couple of things happened in movie that were probably above SS's head. It was nice to make eye contact with W like that.

After the movie, W and I sat down and talked while SS played a few video games. Again, very normal conversation about some things going on in her life. Nothing serious.

I walked W and SS to W's car. I walked around to the driver's side and W got in her car. I thanked her for coming to the movie. She thanked me for dinner and the movie. I leaned in and gave her a slight hand touch on her shoulder and squeezed it gently... trying to be a little loving.

As we were saying goodbye, I said "I love you guys" to W and SS. We said "talk to you later" and I walked away.

I completely broke down when I got into my car. It was like weeks and weeks of holding in my hurt, missing my W, and pretending to be 'detached' all coming out at once.

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I think overall that this is progress. But I have absolutely no idea on how to continue moving it forward. Do I continue to sit back waiting for her to initiate contact? Do I show any kind of pursuit whatsoever?

I really don't know what to do guys?

Thoughts?

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Denver