I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

BobbiJo, I realize that, and I'm hoping it doesn't come to that. I'm hoping she just was put off by a long drawn out schedule. Hopefully, by just saying, "I have to work these three weekends, what do you propose?" she'll come up with some switches that work.

What [censored] is I don't WANT to do the races. I have to -- or I'm broke. STBXW knocked me off her insurance. That's $70 out of the paycheck. The feds gave me about a $40 bump, but Illinois raised its income taxes and took that away. And my company decided no raises for third straight year.

I am trying to hold on as tight as possible, but the races are the only things that put me over the top in those months. My sister called this one time. When I'm OK with my finances, I'm OK about this situation. When I'm feeling strapped then I get bitter.

I'm trying to just focus on today and the next two weeks and let the summer take care of itself. But it's hard.

Part of the proposal she'll be getting from us is that in the summer each of us is responsible for five weeks of childcare. I always take at least three weeks off in the summer and this year I plan on taking four. Under my proposal, then I'd just be responsible for one week of summer camp.

STBXW sent me her vacation weeks. She's taking just two weeks off and the second one is the same week as last year when she went to Sturgis with her motorcycle friends.

I think if she's not going to take vacation, she should have to pay for four weeks of summer camp. Otherwise it's double-dipping. I'm paying her child support even during the weeks I have them. Then I'd be splitting summer camp costs on her weeks so she can work/party.

Not sure how others handle summer camp costs.

I have that old "drained" feeling again, like I had when this all first started. It's been hanging over my head too long. Hopefully, the train picks up steam and this gets over with. I want to feel what it's like on the other side.