I have just read your story (thank you for your reply on my post :-)) I don't know what to say. Your story brought tears to my eyes. You are a wonderful, wonderful person and you have been through so much, you have shown an enormous amount of strength. Keep your head up high and do try to look after yourself as good as you can. I haven't been here long enough to give you advice but I just wanted to say that I wish you all the best, you deserve it. Just try to take care of yourself. Start with little things and it will get easier. It really works. You have looked after so many people for so many years, now it's time for you. I'm sending you lots of love and hugs.xxx