Losing my motivation....need some advice quick...

[zengypsy]

2 - I don't but I can put some suggestions together and throw them out there. I would welcome coming into NYC, but it's a little out of the budget at the moment with all my snowplowing expenses.

Are there any days you had in mind?

I have cried so often in front of my H since this all began. I've tried not to, but I can't help it. He offers me no solace just a cold hearted stare and says I use my tears as a weapon. Do you really think he has his moments of anguish? I know that Michele says that even though they blame us for everything, it's just to mask their pain. It's so hard to see the forest thru the trees sometimes.

I'm trying to hang tough. I just want my H to come home.

I know this, agner only last so long and when it fades then the real pain begins. My W did no cry once when she got OK and for 3 months she has told me she did not shed one tear. Until the other day when I got that text I shared with you guys/gals. Anger is temporary and so is resentment. Maybe now he does not cry maybe now he doesn't feel the anguish, but he will.

Hell when my W left I said good riddance! Any woman who doesn't want to be with me doesn't deserve me. I cried the first day and then I swore never to cry again. I did not begin the tears until January when i really started to understand the hurt. It's funny we can run away and go to the other side of the world but eventually we will always meet ourselves again.

There are days that I say "I know beyond a doubt we will be back together" and other day when I say "it's over" I am trying to live for the moment. I know this much, I have never hurt the way I am hurting now. If she knew the pain I was in she would never believe it.

2 - I'm with you word for word the only diff is mjy H knows the pain I'm in but he says this is the way it needs to be. That when he left last Feb it wasn't about me anymore it was about him. That it took him to leave to shake me up? My realazation came too late. He said that I f'd up and the D is the consequence I have to pay.


I was thinking we can meet up at the WP diner or one of the restaurants on Mamaroneck Ave. Just thinking the diner would be more low-keyed and we can hang in the booth without being rushed out the door and dealing the Happy Hour crowd. I'm totally cool with whatever though.....LMK what u think.

Dinner break - will be back on later.