This weekend was pretty good for me...who knew?! I didnt even cry. Okay, I teared up once but, that's still very good! I had a wonderful Saturday afternoon/evening w/a girlfriend! I laughed even!! Sunday I went to a Bible Study for Marraiges in trouble. It was really hard (hence the tear up) cause I was the only one w/out a spouse present. But, I felt like I learned a few things...
I have not heard from H in any form since he picked up the Dog last Thursday. So, that's been real hard. I struggle w/the feeling of end of us. As he has never gone dark like this EVER. But, I refrain from contacting him in anyway and hanging tough with the LRT/Going Dark too.
But, it does feel that he just pushed a "Delete Button". Anyways, I have a C appt. this Thursday w/ a new guy. Cause, I felt the other guy was a little odd. Plus, this MC comes highly recommended and his goal is to save Marraiges!
Yall pray for me this week...I'm starting to feel numb about everthing..I'm staying focused on GOD and my own walk. But, its so hard (as yall know). I want my M so much, I know w/what Ive learned, GOD and everything we have gone through that we can have a new Marraige.
Praying for yall everyday!!
Hugs, Dixie
DG - You even type with a Southern drawl; LOVE it!
VERY proud of you for going to your Bible Study alone. I'm, sure it was hard, but you did it. I hope that even if some of us have to go thru the sufferings of a D, that can still have a new M with our X's. After all, a D is only a piece of paper and one can marry their X again.
Stay the course DG and keep us in your prayers - we will do the same for you.
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M: 48, H: 42 Kids: 0 T: 20 yrs M: 16 yrs. (H's 1st, my 2nd) WAS/MLC: 12/7/09-I'm not the wife HE deserved Came home per L: 12/26/09, Left again: 2/6/10 Served: 10/21/10, D FINAL: 6/15/11
