i agree that it is better not to know just think about what the end result to having that knowledge will be will it make you feel any better? my husbands band is out on the road right now and this is the first time he is out as a "single man" if i let myself go there i will be destroyed he is going to do what he wants and all i can do is not think about it and try to move forward it does kill tho', i understand, i really do big hug for you