It's probably better you don't know. If you did you might try to get in his business and fix it for him or try to make it all better.
I know you love him. I love the essential spark of who my H is as well. It's really hard to stand aside, watch - let them fail, and not engage at all.
I am losing hope and any motivation myself with the day being the 31st of January. Time keeps passing and eventually the sand in the hourglass that is my patience,and sense of connection to this man I once was happy to call my H is disappearing.
It's me and the kids and he is a shadow.


BITS
Me-51, WAS-52
Kids 2
M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013
Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice.
Love is a action and choice you make, every day.